I turned 30 in Las Vegas!

November is always one of my favorite months, and this year was no exception. The last week was a fun-filled, whirlwind, blast!

We started by celebrating my 30th birthday in style... Vegas style! Trey and I had never been, and I was so excited that we took the plunge and went on this trip. Mom, Lene and Michael all went with us, and we had such an amazing time. Saturday night (my actual birthday), we went to see the Beatles Love Cirque show. It was really good - not great, and by no means bad. We walked up and down the strip, in and out of all of the casinos, stopping at the Black Jack tables along the way. There was good food (and some not so good food - a gross asian noodle place, a mediocre birthday dinner), good (FREE) drinks, and mostly great company and tons of fun. Oh, and lots of gambling. Although none of us came back winners, we had a great time and I couldn't have asked for anything more. Well, maybe for Trey and Michael to not have gotten sinus infections while we there, and for a smoke free casino, but hey - beggars can't be choosers. I was so sad on Tuesday, when our trip was over. But I was super happy because it meant that it was almost time for Thanksgiving...

Wednesday was prep day, and Thursday was my most favorite holiday of the year. Thanksgiving has always been my favorite because we all cook together, hang out, eat great food, laugh and relax. And then April, mom, and I kick off our black friday extravaganza. This year was again no exception - Thanksgiving was super, we got some great family pics taken, food was awesome, and family and friends were all in tow. Again, I couldn't have asked for anything more... well except for me to not be sick. I seem to have come down with a cold or something like it as soon as we got home from Vegas. Go figure.

So now it's back to the real world. Bummer. I have a crazy, hectic 2 weeks of work ahead of me, and then I start my new job! I know you know nothing about this, but that will have to wait for another post.

Four Years Down, Many Many More to Go!

Last weekend, Trey and I celebrated our 4th anniversary. It happen to also coincide with one our greatest friend's wedding (Mazel Tov to Stacy and Jason!) so we decided to make a weekend out of the wedding, stay at the hotel, and celebrate our anniversary. It was wonderful!

On Friday after work we went straight to the hotel and checked in, changed clothes, relaxed for a few minutes and then went to dinner. We've had a gift certificate to this great place in the Bishop Arts district that was given to me by my friend, Mark (like 2 years ago), and we'd never made it there to use it. So I thought, what a perfect time to go. I made a reservation and we went for a very nice, super yummy dinner.

I should back up to tell you about Trey's poison ivy. A few weeks ago, he and Michael went to Greene Family Camp with the temple brotherhood to do a mitzvah day clean up. They ended up clearing a ton of brush on the camp grounds. Well, a week later, Trey and Michael both have a red, itchy patch on their arms. I told Trey it looked like some for of poison ivy. He said - no, you don't get poison ivy that much after exposure. So on Friday Michael had an appt with the dermatologist, and I told Trey he should make an appt with the dr. He wanted to wait until after Michael went and just see what his dr. said first. (Note to readers: my response was - I'm pretty sure whatever it is, they will give a prescription for, and you are going to have to go to get it. And note the point that this is Friday, so we will then have the weekend to wait to see a dr. Sorry Treybaby - but you know when it comes to doctors and medical stuff, I am right!). So sure enough, Trey calls me around lunch time - Michael went to the dr., it's poison ivy, they gave him a shot. Now, being the wonderful wife that I am, I said - let me call Dr. Cook (Note to readers: Dr. Cook is our primary dr who I love. He always gets me in, his office is quick and good, and he is just generally great! It also helps that he loves me - and every time Trey or I go, he asks about how I am feeling and tells us how he talks about me all the time and uses my file for training with his interns and new staff.) So I called, and not only did they get Trey in for an appt that afternoon (amazing!), but he actually saw the doctor and not a nurse or NP. Dr. Cook gave Trey 2 prescriptions - one for prednisone which tends to wake you up, and one for something else that tends to make you drowsy. Both should be taken with food.

So now we are back at dinner... Trey takes his medicine, and we finish enjoying dinner. (By the way - Hattie's: delish!! Everything was awesome and it was great.) As we are leaving dinner, there are a ton of cute shops in the area so we wander into a few as we head back towards the car. (Again note: in one of the shops I find a ceramic pen holder / mug that says "my spreadsheets kick ass". I had to have it and it looks great on my desk.) By the time we get to the car, Trey is starting to feel a little sleepy, and starting to act a little off. So we head back to the hotel and I keep asking if he is okay. We get into the hotel, he sits in the chair for a minute, and BOOM - he is OUT! So I got ready for bed, and then woke him up and told him to get ready. Now, I had brought with us 2 wine glasses and a bottle of wine from home to celebrate with. The glasses were on the table with the wine chilling, and the next thing I know Trey is standing there looking towards them, and then just knocks his hand into both of them, shattering both into pieces. He was just so out of it from that medicine. Needless to say - I didn't want him to clean it up, so I took care of it while he got ready for bed and then he was out again. It was so funny!!

The next day was Stacy's wedding, so we slept in a little, and then I went to get my nails done while Trey went to watch the Texas game. We had a late lunch, and just hung out for the afternoon. The wedding was beautiful and it was great to spend time with all of our friends. It was the perfect cap to our anniversary weekend.

Here are few pics from the weekend...


In the hotel lobby before heading to Hattie's for our anniversary dinner.


Trey opening his surprise anniversary present - Bevo cuff links! He loved them, and was totally surprised. I was equally as happy when I went and bought my Keurig for my anniversary present.



At Stacy's wedding - don't we make a great couple!

Happy anniversary baby - I love you!!!!!

The Biggest Loser

I've watched The Biggest Loser on and off in past seasons. For some reason it just never made it into my regular scheduled programming. But this season, I actually started watching at the beginning and I've been totally addicted. It's so motivating and inspiring to see the change in these people.

Two things that bug me about the show... 1. When did Jillian and Bob become therapists in addition to trainers?? 2. Could they be more obvious and cheesy about the sponsors of the week? I mean, I get it - there are sponsors that want to see their product and have everyone talking about it, but really?! It's so staged and I just don't remember it being this bad in past seasons.

Okay, so now that that is off my chest, I can say that I really do think the show is awesome, and it makes me want to make an even bigger change in my habits. I really wish I could afford to take a month off of work and workout as much as they do, with a trainer, and have all of my meals made for me or at least all of the ingredients provided and the tips for cooking that they get. I keep thinking - man, if I could go to the ranch for a few weeks, I could totally shave off 20 lbs and be right where I want to be!

But I can't... so here I am wondering, how much of it is realistic for me to really do? I know 2 things.
1. I've come a good way from where I started - changing many of my eating habits with weight watchers (even though I'm not counting points anymore - and maybe I need to again), I've changed lots of my habits and am overall much more aware of what I am eating and how much. Now the trick is to go from being AWARE that I am eating to crap, to just not doing it! And also consistency in going to the gym and getting the exercise I so desperately needed.
2. I still have further to go. I am not willing to give it all up - I want to enjoy my food, and there are things that I like that I know are not good for me. But I do think in moderation that is ok. The trick is making sure that it is moderation. I do like working out, and most of the time, I am motivated to go. But am I going often enough and doing enough when I am there? And there are definitely still times when I just don't want to go.

So now I am trying to finding my balance - I guess that's what it is all about, right?

I'm back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yes, it's true... the moment you all have been waiting for... I'M BACK!!! Now, we'll see how long I stay for. I'm really trying, but it is tough. The thing that I have the hardest time with is once it's been a little while since I've had time to post, I feel like there is so much to cover and I want to get to it all. I hate to leave anything out. So I wait until I have time to really post a lot of things, and then the list just gets longer of what I need to post about, and so I wait longer, and you get the cycle.

So here is my almost new year resolution - I am going to try really, really hard to keep my blog more updated, even if it means I don't cover it all.

But in the past 2 months since I last posted, there are a few big things I need to cover, so here is a preview list of things to come...
**Trey and I celebrated our 4th anniversary! We had an awesome weekend together and can't believe how fast the time has gone by. Here's to 4 x 4 x 4 x 4 x infinity more! XOXO
**Madelyn is a superstar (what else is new?!)... I need to tell you about the song she wrote (and sang to us), her grades and how hard she is working at school, and of course little fun antidotes of her charming personality. Oh, and wait till you see the pictures that her could be professional photographer Aunt April took - they are A-M-A-Z-I-N-G (great photographer, super subject)!
**I still have braces... but they aren't so bad anymore. And I have a cool little feature to show you - stay tuned.
**In 10 days (yes - that's only TEN DAYS!!!!!) we are headed to VEGAS, BABY!!!! Oh, and I'll be 30 years old. I am so excited, I can't stand it. My stomach gets into knots when I think about it - I remember feeling like it was so far away, and in only 1 more day, we are down to single digit countdown.
**Thanksgiving is just around the corner, and I can't wait - it's my absolute favorite holiday. And this year, like in so many past, I have so much to be thankful for. Although I am not cool enough to blog about a different reason / person each day, I will make the time to blog about the people / things as a whole. And to be sure to tell everyone that I love, just why I do. So be on the lookout.
**We made (a few) trips to Houston in the past few months where I got to spend some time with my adorable niece, Mia. And this last trip, I finally got to see my bf - the hot tamale - Aurelia. It was so great to just relax and spend some time with family and friends.

Okay, that's all I can think of for now. Stay tuned, and I'll update you on all of these are more!

Happy 33rd Birthday Trey!!!

Today is Trey's birthday! It's an exciting and special day. Today, since it's all about Trey, it gives me an opportunity to reflect on this wonderful person that is my husband. Although I know it every day (well - okay - most days), today especially I am reminded of how lucky I am to have married such a loving, amazing, supportive man. He is truly my soul mate - the perfect compliment and match to me, and I am so thankful to have him.

Happy Birthday Sweetie!

I know I am being a big baby. I know it could be so worse. I know I am a very fortunate person. I know I truly have little to complain about.

BUT...

This really sucks! I hate having braces. And I do know it will get easier, I will get used to it, and it's not THAT bad. But it feels like it is that bad and I won't ever get used to it. My mouth is so sore, that I don't even want to talk. And you all know how bad it must be for me to not want to talk. I have sores all inside my mouth, my lips are so dry they are cracking, and it really hurts!

I hate having braces!!

I can now officially be known as...

Sarah Braceface Gourley
Metal Mouth
Rarah Braceface

Yes, it is true - I now officially have a full mouth of braces. This morning I went for my 8:15 am appointment and didn't leave there until after 11:00. It was an interesting experience. The braces themselves weren't so bad, but the apparatus they used to hold my mouth open was brutal. It makes it where you can't really swallow and when you do, it rubs against the insides of your mouth - not comfortable. The worst part was the sounds. Everything sounds so much worse than it is, but you can't help but tense up at the sounds of the machines, and the look of pliers going in and out of your mouth. Oh, and the light gun that dries the glue - that is a freaky thing to see coming at you. The worst part was the little rounded saw that he uses to shave off little bits of my enamel to allow for room for my teeth to shift. The good thing is that this alleviates the need to have any teeth pulled; the bad news is it sounds and feels like a blade going between my teeth and into my gums. And when it's all done, I have a mouth full of blood to show for it all! It was gross and very freaky and he'll be doing that for at least the next few appointments - oh boy!

Thank goodness for April, who woke up early to go with me. She sat through the whole appointment with me, telling me how great I was doing. It might sound silly, but when it comes to this kind of thing, I feel like a little kid that needs the comforting, and it was so great that she was there. Plus, then it meant we got pictures - because even though this is really not something I need a visual of, I know I'll be glad to have the pics.

I am sore, and excited, and broke! And as much as it stinks right now, I am very happy to finally be getting this done.

Here are few pics of the morning...


This is the mold of my teeth, and my smile BEFORE!


Dr. Jeff using the light gun that dries the glue - that thing is weird!


This thing is the WORST! It holds your mouth open for the entire time so they can do get into your mouth without problems, but you can't swallow and it hurts!


All done!!! Can you see how crooked the wire is? That is how crooked my teeth are. But not for long!!!!!

Summer's over, and it was a busy one!

I guess summer is now officially over. Madelyn went back to school this past Wednesday, Jackie and Dani went back to school this past Monday, and holy cow - it's September in 3 days! Where did the time go? It was a fun and crazy summer with lot's going on. Obviously you know all about Madelyn going to camp. In addition to that Trey and I each got a week off with her. She was all set to go to Grammy camp for a week in August, but unfortunately Grammy had a crazy accident and had to have surgery instead. It's a long, odd story, but the outcome is that she is recovering just fine and will be okay. The short version... while working on the ranch with Grandad with some some cows, one of the cows kicked a steel pipe that they were working with and it swung up and hit in her the face. Talk about "the perfect storm". It was a total fluke accident, but it hit her just right where it resulted in several fractures in her face. She had to have surgery to repair, and poor Grammy - her entire side of her face was literally black and blue. But like I said, she is doing sooo much better now, and with some more rest and a little TLC, she is going to be her normal self again. Thank goodness!!!! So anyway, instead of Grammy camp, Madelyn got a week of a little bit of this and a little bit of that. She spent a few mornings with the big girls - Jackie and Dani. They were absolute angels stepping in to keep her for us. April covered an afternoon after school and a day she didn't have school, and Trey and I took a few half days to balance the rest. It was CRAZY, but it all worked out just fine.

After that week, we headed to San Antonio for a little family vacation with my mom, Allan, Megan, Mia, Mara, Jacob, and us. It was tons of fun! We got to see Aunt Jo and had really yummy grilled hamburgers and hotdogs (thanks Marty) and swim. That was the highlight of the weekend!!! But we also went to the wax museum and Ripley's Believe it or Not museum, took a boat tour of the riverwalk, went to the Natural Bridge Caverns (very cool - and a good walking workout), and ate a ton of good food. It was so much fun, and so sad that when it was over, basically so was our summer. So that's all kept us pretty busy.

Unfortunately, the summer didn't end on the brightest note for me. I've been feeling great, with no active Lupus flare ups for several months now, and at the beginning of the summer, my Dr. and I discussed working on lowering and getting of some of my meds. We decided to wait until the end of the summer because being in the sun has caused flare ups for me in the past. So here I was thinking we were being so smart and strategic about it all. So about 6 weeks ago, I had another appt and we decided to get it going. I went off 2 of my meds, and started to taper down the Prednisone (steroid) from the 5 mg I was taking daily. The plan was to reduce by 1 mg each month. Very slow. Well, I went to 4 mg with no problem. Then I went to 3 mg and a week into it, my chest started to hurt. I am so disappointed and frustrated. I have now been back at 5 mg for a week, but since I didn't go back up to a big dose, I am still feeling bad. In the past, when I've had a flare up, it's taken a little while with big doses (40 - 60 mg) to get me feeling better, then we drop down. But I really didn't and don't want to go back up to that kind of a dose. So I am happy that we are trying a mild increase to a small dose to take care of it, and I expect that it means it will take me a little while to be feeling better - since it's such a small dose still, I am not going to all of a sudden be feeling better like before. But I just want to be feeling okay, and I really want to be off this darn medicine. I know that the small dose that I am on - even at 5 mg - is really not that bad, but I just want OFF. Oh well - it is what it is, right?

So the really great news is that we've decided to do something big for my 30th birthday this year. I am so excited I can barely stand it!!!! Trey and I, with my mom, Lene and Michael, are going to Las Vegas for 4 days for my birthday!!!!!! We leave on Saturday (my bday) 11/21 and come back Tuesday night. Then we have Thanksgiving that Thursday, which is my absolute favorite holiday. It is going to be so awesome!!!!! So the countdown has begun and right now we are at 84 days! It seems so far away, but I know it will go by so fast. Vegas Baby!!!

Well I think that is it. You are all caught up now.

Madelyn got back from camp, and just as the pictures seemed, she had an awesome time! We all missed her so much, and she missed everyone too. But she has such a great, fun, rewarding experience that it is soooo worth it! She's already ready to go back next year, and for longer!

So while she was there she did some incredible stuff... there was swimming every day, a huge rope swing, a gigantic slip n slide that was part of the July 4th carnival, cooking (she learned how to make pita over a fire, and chocolate balls), lots of good food, lots of great friends, and tons of adventures. She was so busy having fun, that she didn't even read her mail!!! Yes - after we all worried and fretted about making sure she got tons of mail - emails, letters, card, packages, etc. - she didn't even read any of it. I was laughing so hard, when as I was unpacking her, I came across of her mail in a huge pile, practically untouched. Anything that was mailed to her (cards, letters) WASN'T EVEN OPENED!!! She opened packages and took all the goodies out, but really didn't even know who sent her what because she didn't open the notes that went with them!! I'm telling you that kid cracks me up!

After a few leisurely days back at home with Daddy and Rarah, Madelyn is now with her mom and stepdad for a few weeks. We were so sad for her to go, and so was she, but she is also so excited to spend some time with her other side of the family too.

So I guess it's back to the real world for me... no more vacations for a little bit, and Monday I am back at work for the first full week I'll be working in over a month. What a bummer!!!

T minus 24 hours!

I'm so excited I can hardly stand it. This time tomorrow, we'll be pulling through the gates at GFC to pick up the princess and my big girls too!!! It's very bitter sweet... I am so ready to see Madelyn and hear all about her camp adventures, the friends she made, and the fun things they did. I am so ready to give her a big hug and kiss and squeeze her tight. But I am also sad that her first summer at sleep-away camp is already over too. It went by really fast, and really slow at the same time. I just hope she can remember all of it so she can tell us EVERYTHING! I wish I could go back to camp...

I have to give another shout out to the friends that were at camp while Madelyn was there. They made it bearable for us back home. The daily doses and updated on how much fun she was having was both a relief and a joy to each day. It's been super difficult these past few days with no one there to send me texts, emails, and pictures! Next year, we'll have to coordinate their staffing time so that they aren't all there at the same time! Hello - priorities!!!

This morning was a little difficult. My routine for the past 9 days has been:
1. arrive at work
2. skim for important emails, skip all the others and come back to later
3. get on GFC site, look for pictures
4. email Madelyn

No #4. today. So sad. I didn't really know what to do - it felt so weird to not email her. So I started to email her anyway, but then I thought - well that's just ridiculous, she won't even get it!

Last night I made a big Welcome Home poster for Madelyn, and tonight I'm going to get some balloons to hang with it for when she gets home. I remember my mom used to always pick me up from the bus drop off (I took the bus home with all of my friends) with balloons, signs and presents. It was like it was my birthday! Spoiled, I know... but I guess the tradition must continue.

Well, I guess I better get some work done since today is my Friday!

And by the way... if I hear one more thing about Michael Jackson, I am going to scream. Enough already - let's talk about some real news!!!!!

Camp ROCKS

Well, 4 complete days of camp have come and gone, and my spies have given daily reports that Madelyn is all smiles and having an awesome time at camp. It's such a relief. It's harder than I thought with her being there (for me - not her!). It's not that I don't get to see her - I'm used to that - but I find myself constantly worrying about her. Is she having fun, is she getting along with her new friends, does she have enough clothes, enough panties, is she getting enough to eat, enough rest, enough water, is she homesick, blah, blah, blah - you get the picture. It's been a HUGE relief to have some friends there staffing this week (what a great coincidence that they are there the same week as Mads - that was a great surprise), and to hear little updates on how she's doing. Not just that she's doing well, but I've gotten specifics on some of the things they are doing, and some things she said...

For example: I asked Aimee to tell her that at the rate she was going, she better make sure she sends her clothes to laundry. (On day 2, I'd seen pics of her in 4 different outfits!! And when we packed her I packed her 11 outfits for 10 days and told her she didn't have to do laundry if she didn't want to). So now I've been panicking, think OMG - she's not going to send her clothes to get washed because "Rarah said I didn't have to", and then she's going to get to day 6 or 7 and not have any clean clothes! So I was going to go buy a few more outfits and get them in the mail real quick. And then I thought - no, she'll figure it out. She's a big girl, and at the end of the day if she has to wear some dirty clothes it's not the end of the world. Now you all know 1. this is a kid who wants to change if she gets the slightest amount of dirt or stain on her shirt, and 2. the thought of her having to wear dirty clothes both grosses me out and makes me feel just awful! So anyway, I asked Aimee to tell her to be sure to send laundry. I get a message from Barrett the next day, along with my "daily dose" that Madelyn is doing great and having fun, she says... "She said she thought she would be ok with her clothes, but will need to wash her underwear". I just laughed. That's my kiddo!

So in all of the pictures we've seen, Madelyn seems to be having the time of her life. PHEW! I really thought she would, but you just never know. She's so independent, strong willed, and fun, and so I really did think camp would be nothing but wonderful for her. It's just so nice that this experience is transpiring as we'd hoped. Again, a huge thanks to our friends who helped make this decision. It wasn't easy, let me tell you. But Trey and I discussed it a ton, and talked to several people with more experience in this area, and ultimately, I am so glad we made the decision to send her to Greene.

Madelyn's having a BLAST at camp!

I'm back at work today and it has been incredibly hard to concentrate and get anything done. Here are few of the thoughts that have run through my head today...

• 7:00 am - I hope Madelyn had a good night last night
• 7:05 am - Wonder what they will do today
• 7:10 am - I can't wait to get to work and see if they posted pictures
• 7:12 am - Okay stop thinking about camp, and get ready for work. Yuck - have to go back to work
• 7:20 am - No - you can't check pictures yet. You have to get to work first. That's the deal
• 8:05 am - This traffic sucks... I wish I was at camp instead of heading to work
• 8:50 am - Okay, at work - have a lot to get done today
• 8:51 am - Okay, first I'll see if there are pictures posted, then I'll get work done
• 8:55 am - What? No pictures?? Yeez... what a bummer
• 8:59 am - Maybe if I email her, THEN I can focus on getting some work done
• 9:10 am - Still no pictures
• 9:12 am - Still no pictures
• 9:20 am - Still no pictures
• 9:30 am - Still no pictures
• 9:40 am - Okay, this is ridiculous! I thought they posted pictures during the night
• 9:50 am - Hello - get some work done
• 10:00 am - I hope Madelyn ate a good breakfast. Wonder what they are doing now. Wonder what she's wearing and if she dirt on it and has changed clothes yet.
• 10:15 am - Still no pictures
• 10:20 am - Still no pictures
• 10:21 am - text from April "Pictures are loaded!" - What, I just checked...
• 10:25 am - There she is!! Yay, she's having a great time I can tell
• 10:30 - Okay, maybe now I can focus on work

Imagine all of this repeating throughout the day. With a few hours of actual work thrown in there, but not much. It's been so hard to get anything productive done!!

Then I got a call from Barrett and Aimee, who are at camp this week. They went by to see Madelyn and check on her, and were calling with a report. It put the biggest smile on my face to hear that she is loving camp and having a blast!! Madelyn thought it was so cool that they know me, and when Aimee asked her what she should tell me was her favorite part of camp so far, she said, "EVERYTHING! My bunk is wonderful!". She also said to tell me that she got just a little homesick for a minute, but she got over it fast. How cute is that! When Barrett told her that we went to camp together when we were her age, she just couldn't believe it!

So then, a few minutes ago I got a message from Oren, who is also at Greene this week. He checked on Mads and said she was having a blast and it was so great to see her running around mad with all of her new friends.

WOW. We are so lucky to have such awesome friends, and great spies!! I'm so grateful for them and the knowledge that our princess is having so much fun!

Our baby is growing up!

Well, we got Madelyn all dropped off and settled in at Greene Family Camp this morning. It was a wildly successful event.


Getting ready to leave the house this morning... GFC bound!


But before we left, April had a little surprise for Madelyn... a new bunkbed charm for her charm bracelet! Madelyn loved it so much, she asked April to get it put on her bracelet and mail it to camp!!

We made it in great time - thankfully since she was so excited and ready to be there.

On our way to camp... are we there yet?!

Pulling into camp... the excitement was boiling over!

We got her through check-in and to her bunk in quick time, and we even got to say hello to Loui - the camp director who has been around since before I was at Greene, and was very helpful in our decision making for Madelyn to go to camp. She was unpacked and all settled, and within minutes, fast friends! Dena, who we met last weekend at the pool party, is in Madelyn's bunk and we are so happy about that - they immediately hit it off last weekend, and today were instantly by each other's side.

At her cabin - all ready to meet her bunkmates!

Getting all settled in - she could have cared less where I put her stuff - she just wanted to get her camp experience started!

So after we got her bed made, clothes unpacked and cubbies filled, we headed to Kibbutz to see Dani and Jackie. At first I was worried because there was no one around, but as we were getting ready to head back down to main camp, they came walking up. Dani ran straight to Madelyn - she was so happy to see her and so excited that she is finally at camp. Jackie wasn't far behind and we got to chat for a minute and get a few pics in before we got kicked off of Kibbutz.

So excited to see her big cousins!

It all brought back incredible memories of my days at Greene. I'm so thrilled that Madelyn gets to experience this. I just know that it will be such a rewarding, growing, phenomenal time for her.

So as the day has progressed, it hasn't been easy. Nerves are on overdrive, and we're all so anxious about Madelyn being away. It was especially hard for Trey come 6:30, as I know it was for Jennifer too. This is the first time to not talk to Madelyn for a day, let alone 10! We all know that Madelyn is going to do great, have a wonderful time, and learn so much. But the question is... will we survive?!?! I know that we will, but in the meantime, Trey and I are learning how to be sooo happy, and sooo sad at the same time. All the way home I was worried that I forgot to pack something, or tell her something. I know she's fine, but I can't help it.

I hope that Madelyn found the surprises I left under her pillow from Daddy and Rarah, and one from Bubbe. I know she'll have tons of mail every day - there is already 7 emails waiting to be printed for tomorrow's mail call. I just hope she has enough time to read them all. I can't wait to hear from her, but I also hope she doesn't get too worried or consumed with trying to write everyone. Just one letter to let us know she's doing as well as we know she will, and that's all I need.

So that's all for now. Enjoy the pics of camp dropoff!

One last pic... as we were leaving (she couldn't get rid of us fast enough!), Madelyn was already hanging with her new friends!

Follow me to GFC...

T minus 6 hours...

Tomorrow morning Madelyn is headed to Greene Family Camp for her first summer sleep-away camp experience. I am SUPER excited, and really nervous too. I've gone through her packing list 3 or 4 times tonight, counted her outfits, panties, socks, checked for sunblock, waterbottle, stationary with labels and stamps, toothbrush, hairbrush, and bedding galore. I recounted her outfits and panties - for fear that she'll run out. And just as I always did when I went to camp, she has more than enough to get her through (of course I went over the suggested quantities just a little).

Madelyn is incredibly excited, and I am so glad that she is still looking so forward to it. I just know she'll have such an awesome time and I think this will be an amazing experience for her - both for the fun, and for the learning experiences too.

Well, it's really late, and I'm exhausted so I'll post on how the drop off goes. Don't forget to write her - email me if you need the email login or address info.

Wow - these last few days have been busy...

We had an awesome Father's Day weekend! Grammy and Grandad came to Dallas for a visit, and they brought with them Bijou (Grammy's maltese puppy), and Flora (Grandad's newest find... a fawn - baby deer - that they are bottle feeding). It was tons of fun. We relaxed around the house, went bowling, grilled steaks for dinner, and just enjoyed everyone being together. Unfortunately, back to Blanco they went Sunday morning...

Sunday evening Trey, Madelyn, and I went to a pool party for all of the GFC Campers from Dallas that are Madelyn's age and going to camp for the first time together. Trey and I got an email from one of the parents that they were organized a little pool party to get all the kids together before camp so they would make some friends and know some other kids before they got there. I was so excited at this that I cried. Yes, I know... really, cried?! But it was one of my biggest fears that Madelyn wouldn't know any other kids, and this just made that one step so much better. She hit it off right away with one of the other girls, and of course the boys. I'm so hoping that they'll be in the same cabin (the girl only of course!) and that this experience will give her some friends in Dallas that she can get together with and spend time with when she is here.

So here we are on Wednesday - hump day. Madelyn and I have had 2 days of vacation so far, and they have been F-U-N! On Monday we had some chores to take care of - the A/C people came out for summer time checkup, and we had our quarterly pest control maintenance completed too. Both appts. were scheduled for 9:00 am and both were here and working by then! Madelyn woke up lazily - watched a movie while I did some cleaning, and then we had lunch at home. Ashley came over for lunch and then we took Madelyn to the roller rink for some roller skating. She tried out roller blades for the first time and she did great! There were lots of falls (she has a huge bruise on her elbow - yikes!), but she was really awesome. She'd just get right back up and tell us "I'm fine, I'm fine", with a roll of the eyes that said - back off, you're embarrassing me! After roller skating, we headed to Target to attempt to get the rest of the camp list taken care of. Notice I said attempt. We weren't very successful, and my patience was just about out, so we called it quits on that for the day. Ash headed home and April and I took Madelyn for some fro yo... for those of you not cool enough - that is frozen yogurt. There is this great place that opened not too far from the house. You fill your own cup (there are about 10 flavors to chose from) and then you put on your own toppings. There candy toppings and fruit. The catch is, you pay by the ounce. We've been frequenting this place, and let me tell you, as hard as I try I don't have it down to a science yet. It costs me almost $5 every time we go, and I keep trying to keep it down, but before you know it, you've filled to the top! DANGEROUS!!!! So then we went home, and cooked dinner, and chilled a little with daddy.

Yesterday we went to the gym in the morning, followed by lunch at Freebirds with April, and then off to do more camp shopping. This time we hit Khol's, and JACKPOT! We got almost everything that remained on the list. YIPPEE!!! I was so excited and it was relatively cheap too. So from there we headed to Leenie's for some pool time. Madelyn was so great helping me get sunblock on my back. We swam for a bit, played a few games in the pool, and then headed home. Last night we got Madelyn's stuff for camp all labeled, and mostly packed up. It's getting close, and she is so excited! Yesterday, Rarah got into a little trouble too. We got a letter from Jackie at camp (it was written to Trey, Madelyn and I), and ooops... I shred it before Trey got to read it! YIKES. He was so NOT happy with me. I was cleaning up, and wasn't even thinking. I tried to regurgitate what it said to him... camp is fun, it's really hot, blah blah blah... It didn't work! He wasn't having any of it. So I had to send an emergency email to Jackie last night for help to redeem me!

This morning I had an orthodontist appt for a second opinion on the process I'll need for my braces. I got mostly the same prognosis - 2 years and $6000!!! But this dr. said I'll need teeth pulled to make room and the other one didn't say anything about that! So now I don't know what to do. I left a message for the first dr. to see if he thinks I need teeth pulled and just didn't say, or what. I guess depending on what he says, I'll go for a 3rd opinion - a tie breaker maybe???!!!!! Oy vey! All I can say is, to anyone out there with young kids, when they start to fight you on getting braces when they are young, you send them to me and I'll set them straight. This is for the birds.

Well, today we are off to have lunch with daddy and go to the Children's Museum and IMAX. Tonight we're picking up Madelyn's cousin, Hollie, for a sleepover and day of fun with us tomorrow! Hopefully it will provide a much needed break for her mom and dad (they just had twins!), and give Madelyn and Hollie some good play time. Oh yeah, and a little break time for me too!!!!

So that's it for now. More to come soon.

Madelyn has new cousins

It's been a long, exciting, exhausting week for the Studdard (and extended) family.  For those of you who have been following, Stephanie (Madelyn's Aunt) had her twins Wednesday morning.  It's been a long journey to get there, and now the real journey begins.  Brooke was born with very little complication, but did have Pneumonia and has had to spend a few days in NICU.  She is doing well, and they will hopefully get to take her home soon.  Kamryn, who was diagnosed early on with CDH, has also been in the NICU.  And tonight, amazingly enough, they were able to perform surgery.  This came upon much sooner than expected, and we just heard that it went extremely well.  That is all I am going to say on the details, as I don't know enough and certainly can't explain it.  You can follow their blog, though, through the link on the lower right of mine.  

What I can tell you is that these are amazing people, with extraordinary determination.  I am so fortunate to be linked to them - through Madelyn, and through choice.  I've felt so connected to their story and everything they are going through, as I know so many of you are through your constant inquires to me.  I'm just so grateful to be a part of it all.  Kamryn, and all of the family, still has a long road ahead of her / them, but they are all so positive and strong, and are getting through it all so wonderfully.  Here's to continued happiness, success, and great health to them all!

Sunday, oh Sunday...

The countdown has begun...  One more week of work and then I am on V-A-C-A-T-I-O-N with my princess!  I have to start thinking of some low key fun things we can do.  Any suggestions??  And if anyone wants to contribute to the "entertain a 7 1/2 year old in 95 degree weather" fund that would be great too!!!  I'm just so excited to see her and spend some good time together.

Today I start counting points again, so wish me luck.  I've been continuing to think of weight watchers when I eat, but I have not been actually writing down everything I eat and counting the points for the past probably 6 weeks.  It started with being out of town and losing track one week and I just never got back to my spreadsheet.  So today I get back on the strict wagon.  I have I think 6 - 10 more pounds I'd like to lose (so long as it drops from the right area - my tummy).  I definitely hit a plateau a little while back, so now I have to really watch it, and I'm trying to change up my workouts a bit too.

Today the girls went off to camp, their last year at Greene as campers.  It's so exciting and so sad at the same time.  This summer they are on Kibbutz - it's much like a Kibbutz in Israel where they as a group do all of their own living work such as cleaning, cooking, taking care of their environment (there is a garden and a mini zoo that they tend to), etc.  It's great work and TONS of fun thrown in there too.  When I went to Kibbutz 15 years ago, the girls were only 6 months old and they took me to camp.  WOW - it's been 15 years.  I think of them as babies taking me to my last year at camp as campers, and ironically there last year at camp as campers is Madelyn's first year.  The cycle is so cool and exciting.  I'm still a nervous wreck about Madelyn being away at camp for 10 days, but I just know she is going to have such a blast.  I'd bet money that when we pick her up she says she's not ready to go home yet!

Ok - well it's Sunday afternoon and I have to go get some productive things done.  Anyone know where I can find the motivation to be productive, because I sure don't have it!!!

This morning started out much like most Saturdays...  the alarm went off way to early, but I got my lazy butt out of bed anyway, and headed to step class.  As usual, it rocked.  I'm always so happy when I go - especially to this one because the energy is amazing, the instructor rocks, and by the time we are done I am dripping in sweat - I think it's a great workout.  

This afternoon will entail some errands (mostly returning some things - good!) and some much needed, overdue pampering in the form of a manicure and pedicure.  I feel so guilty indulging myself while Trey is working his tail off, but what's a girl to do?!  Speaking of Trey - he has been working so hard.  Last weekend and this morning he spent building a pergola for a friend of work.  A very nice job for him indeed.  Luckily April's friend Mike was available and wanting to earn some extra $$ and Trey had some help.  It made the job go much smoother and quicker, and I think Trey really liked having some company too.  They got along great and Trey was super impressed with Mike, so that's great.  He came home for a quick swaparoo of tools and off to grab a quick lunch with Mike before they move on to the next job.  It's crazy how busy Trey has been.  He's really enjoying it, but it's also exhausting and I worry that he'll just plain wear himself out.  And I've had to be on him about making sure he stops to eat lunch, and to wear sunscreen (which I am positive he is not today!).  But he's a grown man so all I can do is be a nagging wife, and leave it up to him.  Now, are you ready for this...  they went to Whataburger for lunch, because... Mike has NEVER been to a Whataburger!!!!  Hello???!!!!  What's the matter with him?  He's from Louisiana, but still!

Well, I guess that is it for now.  Off I go.  

My mom

So here I am, sitting at the computer just killing a little time, and I decided to catch up on some blogging - both doing and reading.  I was trying to think of what to blog about, so I started instead with reading my friends that I hadn't caught up on in a few days.  So I go to my mom's blog - I can always count on her to have a new entry! and  I find an entry that just blows me away and nearly brings me to tears.  You see, I know what a wonderful, amazing person, mother and friend she is.  I've had the absolute joy and luck to have known this for a longer time than anyone else, and to have experienced it firsthand my entire life.  I know how she always manages to have the right answer, or can make you laugh when you need it most, give you a shoulder to cry on when that's what you need instead, and somehow just generally has it all figured out.  But no one else knows this quite like I do.  And so when I read her latest post - "What goes around comes around", it made me smile because it's just one example and one way for everyone else to see the rock that she is.  I am so proud of her, and I know that my Meemaw is too.  Here is her post...

Hi All,
I came in this morning and quickly checked a few blogs that I had not read in a few days. One was Lisa Bearnson's blog. This is the post that I copied from hers...

Hey Everyone!I recently found out about a terrific scrapbooking gal who desperately needs our love, support and prayers. Barb Larsen is from Montana and has been sick for months with lots of testing going on. They finally found a tumor the size of a baseball in her spleen. This is a very rare kind of cancer and she has been in a lot of pain.This is a photo of Barb (on the right) with my pal, Lori Chadwick. (Would not let me copy the pictures. See Lisa's Bearnson's blog)

The hospitals in Montana have told her this is to big for them and they are transferring her to Houston, Texas. Even with all of this going on, she has been working on the farm and continuing her work with her 4H girls. She was even painting the animal pens at the state fair with her girls last week. When asked why she would possibly do this, she said it was the best way to ignore the pain because it would be a long time before she would get to work with her girls again. She loves scrapbooking and is very dedicated to it. She even teaches her 4H girls and they make albums together.

Let's all send Barb a card and a note of support to let her know we are thinking of her. She leaves for Texas on June 15 but her family will forward the cards to her.
Her information is:
Barb Larsen
Box 116
Galata, MT 59444

When you send a card, just leave your name, hometown and state on this blog. I will be gone for the next week on vacation but when I return (Friday June 19th) I will randomly select two people who have sent a card. Here's the fun part. I will send a box ofscrapbooking goodies to each of the winners! So--don't delay. Send your card to Barb today. It will surely put a big smile on her face to know people all over the world are thinking of her.

I just knew after reading that I wanted to offer to do whatever I might be able to while Barb was here in Houston. I can't imagine how scary to be sick and so far away from home and friends and family. I have always maintained that are scrappers are the best of the best and we never meet strangers. While we might be a bit strange we don't know what a stranger is. I immediately sent Lisa a comment to her post offering mine and Kim's (don't ya love how I speak for her) help in anyway. I heard from Lori Chadwick in minutes and you could just hear relief in the tone that someone would care about her friend and help her out. I can't tell you the feeling I had that I had made such a difference with what I think is just a small offer of not much. I just felt this pull, a desire to want to go visit, meet these people, maybe offer a bit of comfort. In emailing back and forth I have to say I am really looking forward to meeting Barb and her husband Joe. They sound like fine people. Lori and Barb met through scrapping (there is that bond again) and on a Bazzill bus tour as a matter of fact. Same one I will be taking in August at CE. Small world don't you think.

I ask that all you that read this keep Barb in your prayers and send her a card.

It makes me so proud to think of her opening her heart to be a friend to this total stranger, and hopefully making this experience a little less scary.

I love you mom!

I survived my 2nd Cycling Class

As hard as I tried to be working late...  we got home from work in time for me to make it to my 2nd cycling class.  I'm not going to lie - a very big part of me did NOT want to go.  But I've committed to doing it at least 4 times before I decide if I like it or not and want to continue.  I will tell you, I do not like it.  But I do feel like it's a great workout.  And it was much easier this time.  I took Alex's advice and focused on pulling my legs in instead of pushing out.  This might sound silly, but it really helped.  Last time, especially when we were up out of the saddle, I found that I was struggling to keep my knees from locking.  But this time I focused on pulling in and it was much easier to control the motion.  So all in all, I really enjoyed it - even though it was hard, and I felt like I pushed myself better than last time and still made it the entire hour!

Jennifer texted us that Madelyn got to be the star of the Sea Lion show at the San Diego Zoo today!!!  She got to hug and get a kiss from the sea lion - she was SUPER excited.  And the rest of the day people were recognizing her all over the zoo and telling her how great she did.  I can just imagine the expression on her face and the sassiness she's swinging now.

Ok, well... I made dinner for Trey and I and finished cleaning up the kitchen, and now I am off to try out my new shower head - YIPPEE!!!  Our shower head has been having this awful loud ringing noise coming from it for - oh - probably a month now.  And neither Trey or I thought - hey, why don't we just go buy a new one.  Can you believe that - how silly to have not thought of it sooner.  So when Trey said he was going to get a new one, I thought - jeez... novel concept!  Then I started thinking about it and we've had that one since living Austin - that's over 5 years and 4 moves.

Oh yeah - one more thing... I know many of you have been reading Stephanie's blog - Kamryn Hope's Blog - through mine (Stephanie is Madelyn's aunt / Jennifer's sister).  Well today she was admitted to the hospital to start the adventure of waiting for her twins - Kamryn and Brooke - to arrive.  You can read all about CDH from her blog and the journey they are beginning.  We're thinking good, happy, healthy thoughts for her and their entire family!

Food Finds

I'm not going to turn into Hungry Girl... don't worry! But I have found some great food finds / recipes lately (most of you know it's my biggest, latest craze), and as I am sitting here enjoying 2 of them for lunch, I thought I'd clue you all in...

1. Serving Size Hummus!! That's right people - already packaged in a serving size - great to take on the go, and especially great to not sit down and eat half a tub before you know it! April and I found it at Costco. It's really yummy (a bit of a lemon flavor) and a nice creamy texture. I'm loving it with tuscan herb pita chips. Mmmm - just had to stop typing to eat one.

2. Recipe: Greek Chicken (if you're not a greek fan, hang on... I changed it up a little bit for Trey and April and they loved it too).

Ingredients:
- 1 lb boneless skinless chicken breast
- 1 can italian style dice tomato (garlic, oregano, basil)
- 1 tablespoon bottled minced garlic
- little bit of olive oil (i think it was 1 teaspoon - not completely sure since i don't have the recipe in front of me - it wasn't much - just enough to cook chicken a little)
- feta cheese (don't remember the amount, but it's just a sprinkling at the end)

* Heat nonstick skillet over med-high heat, add olive oil, add chicken breasts
* Cook chicken about 3 minutes each on both sides (until browned)
* Those of you who know me know how I LOVE to season, so I actually sprinkled a tiny (and I do mean TINY) bit of seasoning on the chicken while it browned - I think if you don't have any seasoning when it's first cooking it lacks season at the end). I actually used my moroccan rub that I just got from pampered chef. (Side note: I was soooooooooo excited when I found on my doorstep on Saturday a big box with my Pampered Chef stuff in it. As only my mom will truly understand, the disappointment was when I opened the box, pulled out all my goodies, and said... that's all I got! Guess I'll have to do another order!
* Reduce heat to medium
* Add can diced tomato, minced garlic
* Cover and cook aprox 11 minutes until chicken is done
* Serve with feta cheese sprinkled on top
* For Trey and April, we substituted mozzarella cheese and they both loved it - gave it more of an italian than greek flavor. I used the feta and loved it too. In fact, I just had the leftovers for lunch and it was yummy all over again!
* We served over brown rice, and with a side of roasted asparagus - Mmmm Mmmm Good!
** For those of you WW points counters, I think the chicken with cheese was 6 points

3. Recipe: BBQ Chicken Cheddar Wrap Ups
This is a recipe I got from the Kraft Magazine (it's also on their website). I actually took 2 recipes and combined them.

Ingredients:
- 1 lb boneless skinless chicken breasts, cut into cubes
- 1 red bell pepper
- 1 green pepper
- 1/2 onion
- little olive oil (same as above - I think I used the tiniest amount and then Pam olive oil spray)
- 1/4 cup BBQ Sauce
- Tortillas
- Shredded Cheddar Cheese

* Heat nonstick skillet or wok over med heat, with olive oil
* Add chicken and cook about 5 minutes until lightly browned
* Add peppers, onions and cook aprox 7-8 minutes until peppers softened little, onions translucent, and chicken just about done
* Add BBQ Sauce and cook 3 minutes
**This is where the BBQ Chicken recipe ends. I mixed with another recipe to serve in warmed low carb tortillas with a little shredded reduced fat cheddar cheese and turned it into a wrap

YUMMY, EASY, GREAT LEFTOVERS!!!!

So there you have it. I have a great new shrimp pasta recipe too if anyone is interested, I may post it later.

I got all caught up on Army Wives, and it was soooo good. I watched 19 episodes in 5 days. Phew... I was tired. Especially since I cry at almost every episode. It's so weird to think about how all of the events progressed in a manner of days - I kept having to remind myself that most people would have been watching over 4 1/2 months, not 5 days! Sunday was the season 3 premier and it was great. I am telling you - if you don't watch this show, you are missing out!

Friday was great - April and I went to the gym in the morning and then headed to Austin for Kingsley's graduation party. It was a bit of a long drive, especially since other drivers just weren't cooperating and wouldn't get out of our way. But we got there with time to spare so we made a quick stop in Round Rock at the outlet. We drive past it all the time and never stop, so we decided - what the heck. As it turned out, I found a few great sweaters at a super cheap price at Ann Taylor so I was glad we stopped. We got to Kingley's party and it so great to see everyone, and Kingsley was so happy that we made it. Kelly was touched that we made the trip just for that. All in all, we had a great time, and we were so glad to be there.

We headed back to Dallas after the party - what a long drive. It's not that it's really long, but in the dark when your eyes just really want to shut - it's hard! April drove the entire way, although I offered several times, but she was just fine. I-Pod turned high and a little chit chat to keep us going and we were cruising. Although I do admit that on the way home I "rested my eyelids" just a few times...

Saturday was busy and fun, followed by Sunday which was busy and fun. Trey was working all weekend, although we did have a great dinner out Saturday.

Madelyn is loving San Diego. Last night she asked Trey to ask Rarah if I get to have In and Out Burger when I'm in California! She loved it. They spent time at Seaworld, the San Diego Zoo, and swimming. She is having a great time!!

So that's it for now, I guess... The summer has officially started - it's HOT outside. We went to get coffee yesterday and were sweating by the time we made it back! I can't wait to be on vacation in less than 2 weeks... countdown has begun!

Today is MY Friday!

I'm so excited that today is my Friday. I'm finding that I definitely have summer fever lately. Maybe it's because these last 2 weeks have been a little slower than usual, or maybe it's because it's so bright and sunny and warm outside. Whatever it is, I am so ready for summer vacation! The countdown has begun, and I have only 2 weeks until I am on vacation for a week with the princess. I need to start working on some things we can do that won't be too expensive, but entertain us both. Definitely one day will be devoted to camp shopping. It amazes me how much stuff she needs for just 10 days away from home... sheets, towels, toothbrush, hair accessories, sunblock, water bottle, hats, clothes, more panties, more socks, sandals and tennis and shabbat attire, and lions and tigers and bears - oh my! Madelyn is so excited - she is ready to go to camp. Tomorrow she leaves for San Diego for a trip with her mom and stepdad, and then she only has a few weeks until camp. After camp, she'll have a couple weeks back with her mom and stepdad, and then a week with Grammy and Grandad, a week with daddy, and the finale of summer vacation is a family trip to San Antonio with Bubbe, Aunt Megan, Uncle Allan, Mia and us! It's going to be so busy, but I'm sure it will also go by so fast.

Today is my Friday, because I am off tomorrow - woohoo!! April and I are going to Austin for the day to celebrate Kingsley's (our niece) high school graduation. The actual graduation is tonight, but tomorrow night is a party at the house to celebrate. We're so excited for her as she starts such a fun time in her life. She's off to Texas State in San Marcos to start school a little early in summer... not time to waste!

So last night I watched more Army Wives. It is so good - I am completely addicted. April called this morning to see if I thought it was out to rent so I could watch it in the car on the way to Austin... silly April... I plan to be done by then! I've watched 15 episodes in 4 days. I've stayed up until around 1:00 am watching it every night. I look at the clock and think - I have to go to bed, and then I just can't help but watch 1 more episode. Only 4 more to go and then I will have seen all of season 2, and I'll be ready for season 3 to start on Sunday.

I took the plunge last night and tried a cycling class at the gym. I was nervous. I'm so not a cycler, and it looks so hard. People always come out of that class dripping in sweat. They cycle for the entire hour not stopping. HELLO - not even 1 break! But Alex talked me into giving it a try. She's done a few of them, and said it is the best workout she'd ever done. The instructor helped me setup my bike, and I talked to several people in the class beforehand who were so nice. After the class was over they all told me how well I did. I sure didn't feel like it! But I was dripping so that must be good. I'm going to have to keep it up - now that I know what to expect, I can start working on building the resistance and pushing myself further. Oy vey...

Tonight Trey starts his summer bowling league. I'm SUPER excited for him. It's been since we lived in Austin that he's been on one, and he really enjoyed it then. I'm really glad he is going to have an outlet for something he enjoys that is NOT work. Hopefully he'll make some new friends, and just have a good time. I'm even going to go watch him some like I used to - it'll be fun. But not this week, because...

I have to get more episodes of Army Wives in before season 3 starts on Sunday. I've been watching season 2 online - they just released it this past weekend, and I only have a week to get all 19 episodes in. It's so good - it's not that hard to do. I've watched 2 -3 episodes each night this week. I'm so tired, though. I've been up until at least 1:00 am every night watching! But I can't stop.

Madelyn's 1st Grade Awards

I'm sure you all are wondering, yet again, where I have been. All I can say is that I've just been busy. I know - no excuse. But I just simply let time slip away. I'm really going to try to stay more on top of this. I start to feel like too much time has gone by and I have so much to say, so I wait until I have time to sit down and really write a lot, but that time never comes! So instead, I'm going to really try to write more often - even if they are small posts.

Today was a neat day. Madelyn had her 1st grade award ceremony this morning. She was so excited in anticipation. The last day of school is tomorrow and she is itching to get her summer vacation started. This morning I woke up really (REALLY) early so that I could be at her school in time for the ceremony. It was a long drive, but let me tell you when I saw the look on her face and how excited she was, it was totally worth it. They gave awards for perfect attendance, all A's for the year, and Honor Roll A's and B's. Not every child received an award, but I am so proud to say that our girl did! She got an award for Honor Roll - all A's and B's. I couldn't be more proud of her! Jennifer took pictures and will send them to me - I'll post her beaming face as soon as I get them.

It just breaks my heart to be so far away from her. As Trey and I were trying to work out the details to be there (and it killed him to not be there), it just made me so sad that we can't be more involved and be there for every thing she does. She is so lucky to have such a loving, committed family on ALL sides, and I know that she feels supported and loved, but it's still hard to not be RIGHT there.

Here we go... just look at that smile!

My Meemaw

This weekend marked 2 years since Meemaw passed away.  I can't believe it has been 2 years.  It has flown by, and gone so slow all at the same time.  So much has happened in the past 2 years, and yet it seems  like just yesterday that she was sitting at the table doing a crossword puzzle, or making us all laugh so hard I thought we'd pee in out pants.

Regardless of how much time goes by, some things will always stay the same.  Like the smile I get on my face when I remember our girls trips, or weekends together as a family.  Or the laughter that erupts when someone says or does something that makes me think - that is sooo Meemaw (and let me tell you there are plenty of people that are saying and doing so many things just like her)!  

It makes me incredibly sad to think that I wish I'd had more time with her, or made the time we had together more meaningful and more frequent.  It makes me sad when I think that I'll never again have the opportunity to call her, and then roll my eyes as I sit on the other end of the phone saying... uh huh, yeah, i know ... while she goes on and on.  It makes me sad that I'll never again see the smile on her face when she is watching our family just be together.

It makes me incredibly happy to remember the great times we did have together, and to know that she knew just how much we all loved and respected her (even if we didn't show it all the time).  And it makes me happy to know that in each of our every day lives, we strive to live up to her memory, and her very high expectations of all of us, and that most of the time, I think we do.  And it makes me very happy to think of her, somewhere, somehow, smiling down on all of us and the strong, united family we remain, the family that she cherished.  

So, 2 years later, I hope I am achieving my goal... to make her proud and live up to her example.

I love you Meemaw, and miss you tremendously!

Accomplishments

This week and weekend is the time for accomplishments.  Not for me, mind you... but for others!  

Mom had her sleep test Thursday night.  It didn't go well (read her blog for details), and she is not happy.  But in a way, it did go well, because the end result is that they said she does have a severe sleeping problem.  The good thing is that maybe, just maybe (fingers crossed) this is the reason for her not feeling well lately.  So if determining the problem is the hardest part, then she is on her way to feeling better.  And she so needs that!  I know the last few months have been very trying on her, and I am so proud of her.  At the end of the day, I know she will get through it all just fine.  But in the meantime, I know it doesn't it always feel that way.  

Trey left last night and headed to Blanco for a weekend of building.  He and Grandad (and as it turns out Grammy too - what a trooper) are building Madelyn's bunkbed this weekend.  When I talked to Trey at 4:30 this afternoon, they'd already gotten all of the materials, cut and framed the top bunk, the desk, and were working on the steps.  WOW - I am super impressed at their progress in one day.  Trey never ceases to amaze and wow me...  I can't wait to see the finished product.  Don't worry - I'll take lots of pictures and post them for all to see.  

On his way to Blanco, Trey stopped off and got to take Madelyn to dinner, and see her new house.  They had a wonderful time... went to Luby's (Madelyn's choice - since she and Trey love it, and I DO NOT), went to see Madelyn's new school (where she'll be next year - very close to their house), played on the playground a little bit, and just got to spend some good Daddy - Puds time.  They both loved it, and I am a little jealous that I missed it!!

Work this week was crazy busy, but it's the weekend now, and I am so looking forward to hanging out and not doing much.  Although the cleaning supplies in our house are calling my name - I'm just not sure I'm going to answer.  Man, I wish I could find a housekeeper that could come once every 2 weeks or once a month...  I would even consider giving up some of my starbucks to pay for it!

My mom ROCKS.  She is the most patient, determined, amazing woman I know.  She manages to find grace and strength in even the most trying of situations.  I have the utmost respect for her - as a mother, and as a person.  She finds energy and ambition when I don't think I could.  I so admire her courage.  She is a constant reminder  to me that nothing is impossible, and to never settle for less than all that you deserve.

And right now, she is feeling frustrated and overwhelmed with obstacles to trying to feel better and being healthy.  But I know she can do it - whatever "it" may be.  Because I know she has more strength and resolve than she is giving herself credit for, and I know this too shall pass.  And in the meantime, ILYMTYLMxI.

Disappointed

Finally, April and I watched Twilight.  What a disappointment.  I don't think the movie at all lived up to the book.  What a bummer.

It was a crazy weekend...

Wow - where does the time go. I thought I'd just gotten all caught up on my blogging (well - sort of the Cliff's Notes version of caught up), and then I look and it's been a week since I posted. I just can't keep up.

This past weekend Trey and I went to Houston for a visit. We got to see Allan and Megan's new house - it is really beautiful. I'm so excited for them. Trey spent all day Saturday (and I do mean ALL day) building a pump house for them, and hanging with Allan. You can look at mom's blog for pics - I don't have them. But it's really cool. It's huge - there is enough room for Mia to have a playhouse if they could block off the pump. Or, as everyone also pointed out - it's a great space for Allan when he misbehaves. There is enough room to put an cot or airmattress for it to be his "doghouse". He didn't think that was too funny. Although he said that was okay since if he was sent out there he could turn off the water to the house.

Mom and I went to step class in the morning and then headed to see the house and pick up Mia. We took her with us for the day. I can't even tell you the smile it put on my face when I walked in the door and Mia came running to give me a hug. Of course it helps that I don't go to see her without a surprise. She was precious. We went to mom's to shower and play a little and then met Aunt Jo and the boys for a late lunch (they were in town for a Bat Mitzvah). It was tons of fun. Mia was so adorable. I told Megan - she was soooo good, and soooo bad. And let me tell you she covered both ends of the spectrum and everything in between. All in all, though, I mostly just laughed and had a great time with her.  Mia is really in to closing doors.  So she was hanging out in her new room, and I opened the door to see her.  She pointed her finger and told me to "get out".  So I did.  And then I thought I heard her calling me so I went back opened the door, and she told me again "get out" and literally shut the door in my face.  So mom went to the door and knocked, and she heard this little voice say "who is it".  So after she giggled, mom said "it's Bubbe", and she heard, "shoot... just a minute... come in".  It was so hilarious - I was laughing so hard I think I was about to cry.  So then we were at Denny's, and Trey wanted a bite of Mia's cheeseburger so he asked her - "Mia, can I have a bite?".  She looked him straight in the eye and said no.  Then when he asked again, she said "not yet.".  We must have asked her 10 more times and every time, she said, "not yet".  So finally we distracted her so he could steal a bite.  She was way in to Uncle Trey on this trip.  When we left Saturday night she gave him big hugs and kisses and when I asked for a kiss she said no!  I'm telling you that kid is a monster and I just love it.

So Sunday morning mom and I woke up and went to step class.  We hung out a little around the house, went to a late lunch, and then it was time to head home.  By the time Trey and I made it home, it was after 9:00.  And I had stuff to do - I had to watch Brothers and Sisters, and HELLO - it was the season finale of Big Love!!!!

I'm here

Yeah, yeah, yeah... I know... Where the heck have I been.


The answer to that is both long and short. I've been busy. And I haven't really felt like I had the time to keep everything up to date on here. But I've thought about it. Does that count? You know - there comes a point where you have to prioritize, and you have to make choices. And I've chosen to clean my house (okay not really - my "housekeeper" does that for me -thanks April!). But I've had to help. And trying to reorganize some, de-clutter, and all around get things settled. It amazes me how much stuff I can accumulate, even after I do so much to get rid. Where does this stuff all come from??


Work has been crazy, but these days I suppose I am just happy to have work to do. It's been busy, and hectic. Lots of change, lots of uncertainty. But good. I can't ask for much more than that. I still work with great people, and we're just getting through tough times like everyone else.


I had an interesting experience a few weeks ago. I had jury duty for the first time ever. Wouldn't you know the first time I ever get a jury summons, I got picked. The defendent actually plead guilty, so we only had to do the punishment phase. It was a really difficult case, I have to say. I'm glad that I was a part of it - a learning experience for sure, and sparked a whole new perspective on our judicial system in me for sure. It was actually 2 separate cases that ran simoultaneously - one an intoxicated assault charge, and one intoxicated manslaughter. The gist... a young guy (about age 24) was involved in a car accident on New Years Eve, a year ago. In the accident, another man who was driving a 18 wheeler was struck, and in the course of the accident, died. It was much more detailed and graphic than that, but you get the idea. It was horribly sad - for all those involved. The guy who caused the accident was clearly a changed person from this, and it was just tragic for everyone. I thought a lot about it in the several days after, and since. I am just so grateful to have never had to experience something like that. It just goes to show you that people make mistakes, and that doesn't make them bad people. But they also have to live with the consequences.


Trey has been extremely busy - which is a great thing. He's been working weekends, and some nights during the week like crazy. He absolutely loves it, but I can also tell that it's taking it's toll on him. It's just hard on when there is no break. But I am so proud of how hard he is working to build up his "hobby" and turn it into a full business opportunity.


Madelyn just finished her Spring break, and spent most of it moving into her new house (her mom and stepdad just bought a new house), and unpacking. She is so excited about her new home, the big backyard with a fence for her dogs to run and play, lots of friends in her neighborhood (some she already had and some new ones she has already made - apparently her neighbors have a trampoline, so you can guess it took her no time to make friends with them!). She got all of her room unpacked, and she's settled. I know her mom wishes she was all settled too - she'll get there. Everyone is super excited about Trey's newest project. He and grandad are building Madelyn bunkbeds! Shh - it's a surprise, so don't say anything!!!! Madelyn's mom and stepdad were going to buy her bunkbeds - with stairs, a desk, and all - that Madelyn has been wanting for a long time. Well, Trey took one look at the picture, and said - I can do that. So now he and grandad have assumed this new project, and they are so excited.


April is in her last year of school - I can't believe it. This time next year, she'll be back in the "real" world. With only about 10 months left to go - it's all creeping up too fast, and I don't like it. The time has really flown by, and I don't like the idea of her wanting to get a full time job, and her own place to live. I don't like it all, and when it's brought up, I refuse to discuss it. And on that note - I'm not discussing it anymore.


Are you ready for this one... Jackie and Dani are driving! It's so scary. Not that they're driving (though that is a little scary too), but that they are old enough to be driving. I sometimes still think of them as my little babies - and they so are not. They are really beautiful young women, and I am so proud of them. I know - I sound like a grandmother, but in honor of my Meemaw, I'll take care of them from that point of view. And speaking of Meemaw, I also can't believe that this month will be 2 years that she's no longer with us. I miss her every day. I never really knew how much I would miss her. It's not like we talked every day, or like I saw her on a weekly basis. But I do now think of her every day, and miss her, and hope that I'm doing what my goal has been since she died... live up to her expectations.


Well, I would update you on my mom, but really it's soooo much easier to just say - read her blog. She is much better than I am at maintaining - she updated just about every day! And I would update you on Mia, but that too is better served by reading mom's blog. I will say, though - that she is growing by leaps and bounds!! She is truly a bundle of energy, and love, and attitude. And when I say a LOT of attitude, I am not exaggerating. That kid has more sassy in her than I ever thought would be possible. And stubborn (wonder where she gets that from?!). And every bit of adorable, huggable, laughable joy that is humanly possible. I am super excited that I will get to see her this weekend. I better go out and get some surprises - Aunt Rarah doesn't come without surprises (and now she tells me so!).


Allan and Megan just closed on their new house, and moved in. I can't wait to see it this weekend. I'm very excited for them. And after I see the house I can get an idea of a housewarming gift.


Okay - so that's about all I have in me for now. Off to bed I go... I'm tired now!

The weekend is already over

Another weekend has come and gone. So sad...

We didn't do much of anything this weekend. Trey spent all day yesterday working. Although he really enjoys building and doing projects as he works on growing his side (and future) business, I know it also makes him sad and disappointed to not be spending the time with Madelyn and I. So today, we had a family day. After the gym this morning, he, Mads and I went for brunch and to go ride go carts (Madelyn's choice). I tried to convince her to pick out a new Wii game instead, but she didn't go for it. She was adorable I do have to say driving her own go cart. And she's a really good driver - except that she kept stopping to fix her jewelery... that's my girl!

Yesterday Mads, April and I went to the gym in the morning, and then did a few errands during the day. Other than that, we just hung around at home.

It was a nice, relaxed weekend. I'm just so bummed it's already over.

Mom seems to have had a nice time with Mia this weekend. If you haven't seen her blog lately - check it out. She's way better than me at keeping it updated, and you've just got to see the pics she posted of the Mia. She is such a little princess. Check out her high heels!

25 Random Things About ME

1. I’m very lucky… I’m married to a wonderful husband, who loves, adores and spoils me. He is the best snuggler, comforter, and companion. He’s seen me at my worst and best, and loved me fully through it all. I don’t believe that any person is perfect, but he is perfect for me.

2. My family is the most important thing in my life. All of my family. We are very close and nothing comes between us. We celebrate holidays and everydays together, and I wouldn’t have it any other way.

3. I learned at a pretty early age the importance of respect. You have to give it to get it. And those who don’t give it aren’t worth it – no matter who they are. One day, I think my father will wake up and realize this. I think then he’ll also learn the true meaning of regret. And if he never does then I guess it’s his loss.

4. My mom is my best friend, and has been for as long as I can remember. She has taught me the true meaning of unconditional love, and I have the utmost respect for her. My biggest fear is that I won’t live up to her expectations, and that I won’t be half the mother she is to me.

5. I am so proud to be Madelyn’s step-mom. She makes me smile. Being her step-mom is one of the most rewarding experiences of my life, and at the same time one of my greatest challenges. Sometime I cry for fear that I don’t live up, but I’ll always try my best to be the best for her – she deserves it.

6. I have a new found fascination with eating healthy (Yeah Weight Watchers) and working out. I LOVE my aerobics classes, and I HATE anything to interfere with their schedule. I love cooking new healthy recipes, and I’m fab at counting points. It’s been a great reality check after a tough year. Now I didn’t say I gave up all the good, but not good stuff. I still enjoy a great meal out and have to have my sweets. But I’ve learned a lot about moderation and balance. Sometimes I lose the motivation to keep it up, but it always comes back.

7. I’ve never been a person to have a lot of friends. And I’ve always been okay with that. Because instead I have a few amazing friends. You know who you are – and I’m so thankful for you everyday.

8. My brother and I aren’t as close as I’d like us to be, but I absolutely adore and love him – even when he drives me crazy. And since he’s given me a wonderful sister-in-law, and the most beautiful, bright (and stubborn – not sure where she gets that from) niece, Mia, he has an even more special place in my heart. Not that he didn’t already.

9. So many people complain about their in-laws. I’m very fortunate, because I have nothing to complain about. They’ve become an extension of my own family. My mother and father in law are rocks, and I so admire them. My sister-in-law, April is one of my very best friends – I don’t know what I would do without her. She keeps me sane and happy. We laugh together, talk constantly, and can finish each other’s sentences and thoughts. She’s an inspiration to me, and she keeps me motivated (see # 6).

10. I have been diagnosed with Lupus. It’s been a challenging year and half learning to deal with this. I’ve learned a great deal about myself, what my body can handle, and what it can’t anymore. Learning to live with Lupus has been a roller coaster that I hate to say, I don’t think is over yet. But again, I say I am lucky. I have been surrounded by fabulous support – from family and friends to phenomenal doctors. It’s a great feeling.

11. I miss my Meemaw (grandmother). It’s been almost 2 years since she died, and I think of her every day. Some of my fondest memories are of times we spent together. And there a ton of memories, because she was there for it all. She didn’t miss a thing. The heart remembers…

12. I graduated from the University of Texas in Austin, with a BS in Communication Studies. Hook Em’ Horns! I think it’s ironic how when you’re in school all you can think of is being out. And when you’re out, you yearn to go back.

13. I truly enjoy my job. I work with great people, I have a sense of accomplishment with what I do, and I like being there (almost) every day.

14. I am not a morning person. I don’t like to be talked to, touched, or involved in any way with anyone for at least an hour after I wake up.

15. I’m Jewish. I like that I come from such a rich (not money) and spiritual culture. I wish I was more involved with my religion. I don’t like that there are more questions about Judaism that I can’t answer than I can. But when all else fails, at least I know where to go to find out. My husband converted to Judaism about 4 years ago. It was an amazing experience for me to be a part of.

16. I love Dogs, I do NOT like Cats. I can’t really explain it – I’ve just always felt this way. Dogs win me over. Especially cute, fluffy, cuddly ones. Cats do nothing for me.

17. I don’t drink alcohol or do drugs. Now I didn’t say I never have. I’m a realist, and I think that experimenting is a natural part of life. My only expectation is that it’s done in a responsible and safe way. When Jackie and Dani or Madelyn are ready to try things, I hope they’ll come to me so that I can help them understand how to experience life smartly.


18. I believe that it takes all kind of people to make this world go round. While I wish everyone were noble, and kind, I know that is not the reality. I recognize that it takes the good and bad to make us who we are. And even though we may wish away the bad or uncharismatic pieces of us, they are a part of who we are, and who we become. I believe that life is complex and difficult, but beautiful and sacred.

19. I tend to live in the gray areas in life, which can make things a challenge with my black and white husband. But we find a way to make it work, and it keeps things interesting.

20. I’m up for a challenge, but can also appreciate things to be easy sometimes too. This very concept is my biggest fear about being a parent. It’s so difficult to find that very fine balance between giving your child(ren) all that you want them to have and you think they deserve, but also teaching them how to work hard for it, and not just giving it all to them. My mom perfected this balance, and I don’t know how she did it. I find it to be one of the most difficult things I’ve ever encountered in my life.

21. I think one of the most unfortunate things in life is that Madelyn will never know what it is like to – by herself – ride her bike to pool during the summer, walk a few blocks to her friends house to play, or lay in the grass in the front yard seeing what images the clouds make. It’s a very scary world, and it really bothers me that these simple things done by herself will never be something I feel it is safe for her to experience.

22. My absolute favorite holiday is Thanksgiving. I love the food, and the way my family celebrates it – casual with everyone cooking, eating, laughing, and just being together.

23. Some of the things that make my world go round … Starbucks, manicures and pedicures, having a new car, the smell of vanilla scented candles and air fresheners, reading all kinds of books from great girlie books to fiction to sudoku to a cookbook, going to the movies, lazy days at home (I’m a true homebody), going on vacation (who doesn’t love that), Starbucks (I know I already said it, but it deserves a second mention), seeing my niece grow and change by leaps and bounds, feeling appreciated, being organized, having a clean house, my Flintstones gummy daily vitamins (my doc says 2 of those are just as good any adult vitamins – and they taste just like gummy bears – it’s so hard to just eat the recommended dose), seeing Jackie and Dani grow into beautiful, charming young ladies… oh I could go on for hours.

24. I met my husband by being on a bowling league. If you know me you know how funny this is. I can’t bowl well (Trey would say at all), and it’s so uncharacteristic of me. It’s the perfect example of why I believe things happen for a reason.

25. My goal in life is to make those around me, who love me, proud. To carry on my Meemaw’s legacy of family and love and laughter. Lots of laughter. And to be happy – because if you’re not happy, what else is there?



So, that's me...