My Meemaw

This weekend marked 2 years since Meemaw passed away.  I can't believe it has been 2 years.  It has flown by, and gone so slow all at the same time.  So much has happened in the past 2 years, and yet it seems  like just yesterday that she was sitting at the table doing a crossword puzzle, or making us all laugh so hard I thought we'd pee in out pants.

Regardless of how much time goes by, some things will always stay the same.  Like the smile I get on my face when I remember our girls trips, or weekends together as a family.  Or the laughter that erupts when someone says or does something that makes me think - that is sooo Meemaw (and let me tell you there are plenty of people that are saying and doing so many things just like her)!  

It makes me incredibly sad to think that I wish I'd had more time with her, or made the time we had together more meaningful and more frequent.  It makes me sad when I think that I'll never again have the opportunity to call her, and then roll my eyes as I sit on the other end of the phone saying... uh huh, yeah, i know ... while she goes on and on.  It makes me sad that I'll never again see the smile on her face when she is watching our family just be together.

It makes me incredibly happy to remember the great times we did have together, and to know that she knew just how much we all loved and respected her (even if we didn't show it all the time).  And it makes me happy to know that in each of our every day lives, we strive to live up to her memory, and her very high expectations of all of us, and that most of the time, I think we do.  And it makes me very happy to think of her, somewhere, somehow, smiling down on all of us and the strong, united family we remain, the family that she cherished.  

So, 2 years later, I hope I am achieving my goal... to make her proud and live up to her example.

I love you Meemaw, and miss you tremendously!